I’ve never really understood how people manage to put themselves out there. On the forums I frequent, I’m a chronic lurker, and I don’t think I’ve ever managed to take the plunge into actually commenting. I’ve tried blogging before, but that just kinda sputtered and died. So that begets the question: why am I writing this now, and how will this be any different?
As to the why, it’s because I want to own my life. In my initial draft of this, I wrote ‘reclaim’. I changed it because I don’t think I ever truly claimed it in the first place. I’ve coasted through most of my life, taking the path of least resistance at almost every turn. Sadly, this has served me well enough most of the time – well enough that I’ve not really had much incentive to learn to take the hard road.
The few times that I have, it has been because there was no other realistic option. Situations forced me into taking a hard look at what I was doing and reevaluating, it was not a pleasant process. So this time, I’m being proactive. After some soul-searching, I’m confronting my fears.
So why blogging then? Well, this is just a part of what I’m doing (and will be posting about in the near future). I’m starting by putting up this site, largely because of this excellent post by Jeff Atwood, as well as some of his other posts on blogging. I just have to get over this fear of failing, the fear of putting myself out there.
So now I’m going to do my projects in public, or at least as public as this far corner of the internet is. I don’t plan on publicizing what I’m doing here, at least not until I’ve done something that I think is worth someone else’s time. Which may be soon, or may be never, who knows?
Will this be different? I hope so. How? I’m not rightfully sure yet. I haven’t decided how frequently I’m going to post, though it may very well be daily. I intend to post all of my projects here, as well as random ideas of all sorts. Topics will likely range from technology to politics to random works of fiction and more.
My next post will likely be about the initial technical design of how I’m creating this site and my future plans for it. For now, I’ll just say that I’m using hugo and stole the initial chrome from spf13’s site.
I think that’s it for now – please excuse the incoherence, as I wrote this entirely too late at night.